Hi All

I frequently visit this site from time to time mainly to see if there are any new treatments available to stop my fortnightly visit to the nurse for my sustanon injection. Tried Nebido but i put on weight, had muscle cramps in my knees and apparently was very aggressive in certain situations especially when people annoyed me. Anyhow am now back on Sustanon and a lot calmer - fingers crossed.

I was diagnosed with Kallmanns at 23 - am now 45. Hadn't even given it a second thought both my parents and i just thought i was a very late developer. Was tormented all through high school, gym classes were a total nightmare - went but totally dodged the showers afterwards for obvious reasons - in fact my nickname at high school was Hamball - loosely translated to having balls like hamsters. Was smaller than a lot of my friends at school so decided to leave half way through 5th year as had had enough of the bullying.

It was really a failed relationship with my first real girlfriend that forced me into going to my doctor about things - her telling me to **** off I dont want to see you anymore and slamming the door in my face" might have had something to do with it - didnt know what i had done wrong apart from not having the right size of equipment for her needs or at least thats what i put it down to.

Anyway went to gps and sent to a specialist and was diagnosed with KS having no sense of smell and had only gone slightly through puberty - had some under arm hair and a little pubic hair but my testicles hadn't descended nor had my penis grown. was on clomiphene for a short while then onto another set of injections that caused me to have severe migraine attacks then put on Sustanon that i have been on for over 20 years now apart from a 6 month stint on Nebido.

Only side effects that i suffer from now are headaches and the occassional migraine and the obligatory mood swings though i do try not to fly off the handle so much but bottle things up.

Only thing that annoys my wife of 5 years is the fact that i still have low esteem and a chip on my shoulder from all the bullying i received at high school. it really annoys her that i don't stand up for myself and back down in certain situations.

I am lucky in the fact that when i met her she didn't want any more kids - i have one stepson who is 21 now. and she isn't one that is hung up on how big the size of your tackle is - her only bugbear is that there are certain positions we cannnot achieve - but then i was never a gymnast.

If you find the right woman she will love you for the person you are.

In past relationships i have always been upfront and honest about the fact that I have Kallmanns and that im not as well endowed as other men - yeah you will get the occassional knock back - but in my experience most women aren't that bothered.

Don't know what else to put or say other than i have got a good gp, a good endocrenologist and geneticist. Any problems i have i know i am able to go to any one of them but most of all a wife that is understanding and can give me a boot up the backside when im feeling low.

Thanks for listening

Regards

Mike